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Potpourri (6/?) [Dec. 17th, 2013|01:55 pm]
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Title: Potpourri (6/?)
Pairing(s): DooWoon, (later JunWoon, DongSeob)
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 500+
Summary: He never said, “no,” and because he never said, “no,” they never stopped. Because you never say “no” to hyung.

“You love me, hyung?” Dongwoon asked Junhyung as they lay, undisturbed and alone, in bed in a post-sex atmosphere.

Junhyung’s orbs opened at the peculiar question posed. “Love”? Huh?

Much like a puppy, Dongwoon nuzzled his nose and lips into the elder’s chest, murmuring again, “Do you love me?”

“…..What’re yo—”

“You don’t have to love me, hyung. It’s okay. You don’t have to love me. You don’t have to.” Maybe that would make him stay.

At each statement, Dongwoon’s lips delicately flitted the gentle skin of Jun’s neck. He kissed him and kissed him there…….

“……………………Woon, stop.” Those kisses stung.

The boy lifted his head; his lips parted in wait. His eyes told the eldest he was utterly bewildered. Junhyung could not stand to look the maknae straight in his face. He could not bear it a day, hour, minute more. His conscious, his soul, could not. Every moral piece of him was eroding. He numbed the feeling—oh he was very aware of it happening—but……



You don’t have to love me, hyung.



Junhyung could not keep feeding that ideology.

“………Woon, I…” Junhyung shut his eyes and breathed to cleanse himself, “…this… this isn’t right. I can’t keep…….”

The child was puzzled.


Junhyung gently pushed the boy from his body. He picked up his shirt from the floor; he shook it out and shot an arm through. Dongwoon shook out his mop hair. He peered to Jun through his fringe, sitting up straight.


Junhyung could not look back upon the other’s bare form.

“We shouldn’ be doin’ this… an’ I know better.”

“Junhyung just what are you saying to me?”

“You should want someone to love you, Dongwoon. Not just take from you. You shouldn’t let anyone take from you. That’s what I’m saying.”

He knew he wasn’t going to love Dongwoon. He swore off love. Yet with each moment with the boy, he felt the cancer trying to grow and coagulate the roads to his heart, but he would not let it. He had to end it. He would not be bruised again.

And, let’s be honest here, Dongwoon was lost and broken. They were lost and broken. Nothing good could come out of their union.

The child blank dumbly in a mess of puke-colored sheets as he watched his hyung flee the room.

His heart folded into a dead chrysalis. He miscarried his butterfly.

I lie a lot. This is the last part for real.

“Potpourri” translates to “rotten pot” in Old French. But it’s naturally dead, dried, decayed flower petals that have a pleasing aroma. You put in both water to make your bath more pleasant. Now you know why I chose that title, I hope. ;;

Um I used the words “boy” and recently “child” for Woon a lot to convey that Dongwoon – despite being a grown man – is a child both mentally and emotionally. He doesn’t know what’s good/bad for him, therefore he’s taken advantage of. Just thought I should explain that, but heck.

Thanks for lending your kind words and dear eyes~ <33


[User Picture]From: louvela
2013-12-17 07:28 pm (UTC)
You broke my heart.

It breaks my heart to see them not having an happy ending. But how could it be possible to have one?

Junhyung did the right thing though. It'll take time but they will find a way to heal their broken heart.

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[User Picture]From: leggymimi
2013-12-19 05:20 am (UTC)
))))))): i am very sorrrryyyyyyyyy........

it is very sad yeah i agree... i almost almost almooost did not post it because i thought the very same thing but then again, it's the only thing i saw happen between the two. i was even gonna have jun smoke again. :/ i don't think this story was ever going to be happy. i tried and tried but the plot i wanted wouldn't've allowed it otl it's hard to explainnn.....

i agree that jun did the right thing i just hate that he had to break woonie's heart to realize it. i dunno bout woonie, though. i dunno about woonie.... TTTTTTT

ohhhh bbbb your lovely recent comments oh i love them and i love you~~~~~~ thank you so much so much so much so much. TTTTTT <333333
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[User Picture]From: louvela
2013-12-25 07:56 pm (UTC)
aww don't be. I actually enjoyed reading it. I love sad stories ^^

not posting it would have been a shame. This is such an heartbreaking ending but at the same time, like I said before, the right one for them. But you did good not making Junhyung smoke again. At least, in the midst of all the sadness, something stays good. Don't worry, I think I got what you mean.

as for Woonie... I don't know either. The way he's willing to let Jun be with him without sharing his feelings... I don't know, it's wrong but at the same time, I do think it's kind of right too. I don't know how to explain that.

awwww you're so welcome ♥♥ I love your stories. It's always a pleasure to read them :)
Love you~
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[User Picture]From: creetpay
2013-12-17 10:21 pm (UTC)
HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO MEEEHH?? No Woonie has no one now T-T you can't just end it like that! No closure or anything, so Doojoon and Junhyung can just break his heart and get away with it? Nonsense! I say you should continue this and give Woonie a new man (like idk Kikwang or an oc...) and make Doojoon and Junhyung jealous and then slowly realize that really do love Woonie and want him back. Please just don't leave it like this. T^T
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[User Picture]From: leggymimi
2013-12-19 05:28 am (UTC)
qqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq otl

"so Doojoon and Junhyung can just break his heart and get away with it?"
^unfortunately it looks that way...... ;;;; but personally myself i've seen this happen too much. people just get away with having no souls and doing things to innocent, good people like babywoon ;;; that kinda inspired this..... omg you're psychic or somethin cause i thought about having seob be his knight but then i thought seob kinda disappeared xDD BUUUUUTBUTTTT say woon did get someone else and made them jealous, i fear that he'd leave his new boyfriend and go back to either dooj or jun in a heartbeat. :/

but honestly, after this, i see dongwoon as being nothing but a wayward, loveless person who just has sex with people no strings attached and it just eats him up inside but he . that's all that i see :(((( this was very sad, but thank you for reading and your comments even though it didn't turn out like you wanteddddddd..... :(:(:(:(:(((((( <333333333
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[User Picture]From: creetpay
2013-12-19 05:53 am (UTC)
Yea I see what you mean about the Woonie getting a new man and leaving him in a heartbeat for either Doojoon or Junhyung thing, since it did happen in Cedillla...:( I kind of like the idea of a broken loveless Dongwoon, who just sleeps with anyone. It'll show that Doojoon and Junhyung did that to him, that they broke him. They would feel like shit cause the drastic change in Dongwoon. I bet it would really hit Junhyung hard of Woonie started smoking :0 damn wouldn't that be something...
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[User Picture]From: leggymimi
2013-12-19 06:13 am (UTC)
; AAAAAA; bb are you in my head wtffffff cause I srs considered having woon smoke and be lost and then a couple years down the road he runs into 2jun and they see the product of their selfishness and just feel like absolute shit. oh dearrr....... I love it all too much and I feel bad for it. I entertained the thought of adding a third part after cedilla. mmm... thank you for sparking my brain cause I've been laying around with nothing to do so now I may work on something ^-~
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[User Picture]From: creetpay
2013-12-19 01:47 pm (UTC)
Lol. Maybe I am >;3 haha jk. But yes I would love to see 2jun react and feel like that. I would love to see another part to both Potpourri and Cedilla, I'm glad I've contribute to that spark! Please type away~ :D
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